Self-doubt. I've had this feeling many times. Am I making this up about Lucas being a crystal child? Is my own budding intuition all in my head? The dream that helped my friend, or when Lucas reads my mind: are these and all of the other little events that hint at something deeper just coincidences?
Sometimes I wonder.
Usually, I wonder this after coming across a really mean post vilifying people who believe that the indigo and crystal phenomenon is real. It's hard to believe in something this subtle when the rest of the world is ready to shout, "Lunatic! Anti-vaxxer! Flat-earther!" (What's a flat-earther??) Yes, these are the names that get lumped together and flung like stones at people like Jenny McCarthy, who stand up for what they believe to be true when it goes against the mainstream religious/political/cultural mentality.
It breaks my heart to see this widespread viciousness and the refusal to consider an alternative point of view. And … it scares me. It scares me so much that it causes me to pause and rethink something that feels true to the core of my soul. What if they come after me?
I'm reminded of the Salem witch hunts. This mob mentality of separation, of "you don't belong", of "you don't deserve to live unless you live like we do", is downright terrifying. That's really what they're saying, isn't it? "If you speak up about a way of life that is different from ours, we will crush you; we will silence you, so that only our way is known."
I've been mourning the American Idol results for this very same reason. I won't go into it here because I couldn't have written about it better than Lisa of MommyMystic in her post, Why Adam Lambert Didn't Win American Idol (or, the problem with religion.) Please check it out. The article and the ongoing conversation in the comments section there are fantastic!
So…
How do we stay true to ourselves and nurture our beliefs in the face of so much dogma and vitriol? Do we withdraw from the public eye and keep our thoughts to ourselves? Do we fight back with matching venom? I think neither of these is the answer. Keeping silent means others of like mind don't get to discover that they're not alone. It also means fewer people get exposed to new ideas. And fighting back simply amplifies the negative energy.
I think the answer is to continue to speak our truth, as honestly as we can. When we share our truth without making anyone else wrong, we allow others the opportunity to see things from a new perspective without inviting an automatic defense. We open up conversations and connect with people who think like we do, and those who think differently.
This post began with doubt. How do we know that our truth really is our truth, then? How do we know that we're not just repeating someone else's truth; a truth that we've read, or a truth that we've heard? For me, the answer is found in my meditation and journaling practice. For you, it might be something else. It is in meditation and journaling that I unearth old beliefs that no longer fit, and discover new truths to lead me forward. I don't know if there is an actual absolute truth. I think it's more malleable than that. That's why it's so important to check in every day with my higher power, higher self, spirit, God, or whatever you want to call it. It keeps me up to date on the current truth - for me, in my life.
And then I share it. And I hope it makes at least a small difference somewhere.
7 comments:
Alexis, beautiful post, and thanks for the link. I will stumble and twitter it tomorrow. These themes have been exactly what I've been mulling over since that post. I did withdraw from the world to a certain extent, certainly the news and politics anyway, for many years at one point, and it was invaluable to my path at that time. It helped me clarify who I was, and really go inward. But now I feel myself going outward more and more, and 'speaking my truth' as you say. Striking the balance, between passion and detachment, between truth-telling and ego, is a razor's edge.
As for the indigo/crystal theories, we will have to get a discussion going on this sometime. I believe there is something going on with this generation, and that many of the writers about these shifts are seeing something, but I have some issues with the 'they are here to save the world' theme. Also, based on Eastern theories of reincarnation, I'm not sure these things are necessarily new, just noticed more now. Interesting stuff though for sure, and a theme I would like to dive more into.
Lovely post. I like nothing more than diversity of belief and thought. Makes for a much more interesting lie methinks, lol.
As for the extremists, well, there's all sorts in this world, I just let it be 'out there'. I don't need to take it into me.
As for indigo, crystal children, I tend to be adverse to labels. I find they are limiting (they can only ever express a tiny portion of who a person is) and can end up being extremely limiting by focing the person/yourself to not consider things outside those parameters, you know?
My own LO is an indigo by description, but I don't think of her as an Indigo child, rather as having indigo tendencies or whatever. I just know she is more than that.
But, tying in to your initial idea, everyone is different. Many people feel good about labels, it is an anchor for them.
It's that for me, I see the labeling as part of the wider problem. It might be a 'good' label, but the visciousness and narrow-mindedness all stem from that same place, the need to narrow, to limit, to draw bounderies. I don't know.
interesting LIFE lol
All I can say is YES YES YES! What a lovely post Alexis. I love that you were able to articulate the internal westling match that can and does occur when an opinion goes against perceived popular view. I praise a person who can go against the grain and hold close to what they know to be true even when they stand as a lone ranger. As a person who walked in a fill-in-the-blank-faith world for a long time and has been evolving into a knowing that is deeper than anything I allowed myself to be open to before I am humbled by the way God is revealing truth and grace to me. Shall we venture into Prop 8 or leave that alone for now? :-) Alexis you are doing wonderful work.
"The wisdom behind your words are a gift"
Blessings,
Carla
Wow, everyone! Thanks so much for the thoughtful comments!
Mommymystic, A razor's edge is so right! I'm constantly cross-checking myself and finding that I've fallen to one side or the other. As for the crystal/indigo stuff, I'm sure that "mystics" have been around since the beginning of humanity, but are perhaps incarnating more frequently and in greater numbers these days. I would imagine many went underground around the time of the witch hunts and for generations afterward. Maybe with the growing consciousness on the planet these days, as more people share their ideas and philosophies through globalization, it's becoming (a bit) safer for these mystics to speak of their gifts. Perhaps it's simply that ... okay, I'll stop here and just write a post about it. Thanks so much for the inspiration!
Mon, I so agree with you! The labels are a difficult issue to get around. I struggled with the same sense of separation when I wrote this post. Am I not separating myself from the extremists (another label!) in writing this post? I do believe that the ultimate goal is to reach an awareness of our oneness, and labels don't serve that ultimate purpose. However, when trying to point to a vaguely common set of characteristics in order to expose people to the idea of a markedly different kind of child/person/group, I don't know how to get around labels. I use the labels in my blog because I want the people who are curious about this phenomenon to find me. Early on, environmentalists were called "tree-huggers." It got people's attention. Now hardly anyone uses that label anymore, because the idea of environmental consciousness has gone mainstream. Perhaps we use the labels as a crutch until the idea has spread far enough to allow us to drop them.
Kathryn, thank you so much for your appreciation! I actually started to venture into Prop 8-land in this post, and then pulled back, for clarity's sake. The point is the same, whether it's hate (which =fear) against homosexuals, other races, immigrants, people of other faiths, and so on, and so on. It's the desire to separate, narrow, and limit that Mon wrote about in her comment. But yes, I felt exactly the same way after it passed, and it continues to weigh on me.
Carla, thank you for your kind words and for being part of this community!
Cheers, all!
Alexis
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